getmethroughthis: counting down

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

counting down

Tomorrow is c-day, so am feeling a bit gloomy. Took my steroids this morning - was up and about before anybody else. F slept in till 7.15 and S slept in till 8 and had to be woken up, so we were all in a bit of a rush.

The veg patch is looking good - clear and ready to plant. Wondering about getting some black stuff to stop the weeds. Have pepper and chilli seedlings coming through and have planted some sweetcorn.

My oestrogen receptor results have come back moderate to strongly responsive, so they will be giving my tamoxifen. Aus says this is very good news, so hooray! Julian had his MRI scan yesterday and that came back OK. He won't need a repeat for 4 months, so hooray, hooray!! I know he was in a state about it. His best mate's dad died of cancer last week, and then there's been me and Granny, so I think he's felt a bit under seige. Sighs of relief all round, and we can shelve that worry for the next 4 months.

Email from Jane Duffy, with cute photos of her (very blond) boy. It seems like ages ago that F was so small. He started his induction at school yesterday - looked so smart and grown up in his uniform. He was so excited the night before he hardly slept, went back to bed for a sneaky snooze in the morning, had his lunch, put his uniform on all by himself (because that's what schoolboys do), and once we got to the playground S came rushing over, gave him a big hug and the pair of them charged off together. Apparantly he was very good, sat nicely at carpet time and was very quiet. We'll see how long the quietness lasts. He came home exhausted, which is probably why he slept so late this morning. We'll see how long that lasts.

S found out that Karla has asked her to be a bridesmaid. Much excitement. Tried the dress on last night and looked absolutely lovely. It is a gorgeous dress, and she did look lovely. Predictably she has completely fallen in love with the shoes, even though I think they may be a tad small. Certainly tight widthways, though the length is OK.

Heard a guy on the radio yesterday - "the main task of parenthood is to make them not need you any more".

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Books I have read while I have cancer

The Pilot's Wife and The last time they met by Anita Shreve. She's a wonderful writer, but somehow both books left me feeling cheated. They both ended too abruptly and the second one REALLY frustrated me. Is this a fantasy or a ghost story or what? You can't do all that and then end a book like that.
The Secret life of bees - somebody Kidd - liked it very much, want to taste the food...made me have honey for breakfast
Touch not the cat - Mary Stewart - romp
Clayhanger - Arnold Bennett - read it in my teens and twenties, re-reading it is very satisfying. Think I am trying to reconnect with my roots...also, you feel you get to know Edwin so well, and recognise his feelings of the inside not matching the outside.
a thousand splendid suns - can't remember who wrote it, but he also wrote the kite runner. I found this really powerful and actually stayed up late to read it... not something I do often at the moment.
The Boleyn Inheritance - Phillipa Gregory - a good read - amazing that you can get so involved, even though you know what will happen to them all.
Little House on the Prairie - Laura Ingalls Wilder - bought it for S, read it myself. Hadn't realised how amazing these people were - able to turn their hands to anything.
The Old Wives' Tale - Arnold Bennett - what a great book. And what a great ending.
Mad Cows - Kathy Lette - actually found this quite stressful and didn't quite believe the solution. Obviously bit into my fear of losing my children...so I couln't find it funny.
emma - jane austen - you can see her faults and still like her. Must re-read Middlemarch. I suppose the difference is that George Eliot didn't always dole out happy endings for everyone. Poor Tertius Lydgate.
Celandine - Steven Augarde - oh, a really good read. It had reality.
The Rose of Sebastapol - by somebody McMahon - enjoyed it, but didn't tie up all the ends
The fountain overflows - rebecca west- read it and loved it as a student, re-read it then, but haven't read it for years. Was really worried in the first few pages that I wouldn't like it, but sank into it again. Interesting being older - felt much warmer to Cordelia, much more generous.
Mary Swann - Carol Shields. Haven't read this for years, but she is one of the authors I have held on to.
Wintersmith - Terry Pratchett - a really satisfying read.
Bean trees by barbara kingsolver - loved this, a real life affirmer. I always like her stuff.
Sovereign - by somebody Sansom - nice pageturner, atmospheric, liked it.
american gods - neil gaiman again - what a great book. Could he write some more, please?
The exploits of moominpappa - tove janssen - how great is this? But these are not children's books are they? I am still in love with Snufkin.
labyrinth - kate mosse - a great page turner but a bit of an anticlimax in the end. Be nice to each other? is that all?
Neverwhere - neil gaiman - saw him on the telly the other night talking about how this was about homelessness. How egocentri am I? I thought it was all about me getting a diagnosis of a life-threatening illness.
Little House in the Big Woods - reading it to S, so a bit of a cheat. But it's so detailed and takes you into this world that's cosy on the inside and scary on the outside. Hope she is enjoying it as much as I am.
Random Acts of Enduring Love - or something like that. Read it through but felt vaguely irritated by it. Then discovered it's based on a true story and felt guilty for feeling irritated by it. There you go.